day 6

Apparently I am all fine, like that fine a$$, I am feeling much better today and I had both, lunch and dinner. I am well hydrated, no panic attacks, I was perfectly fine. 

To add on that I had an interview where I went wearing a t-shirt round neck and lower with crocs and everyone was judging, I wasted an hour there and when I was finally called up, they asked me pretty basic stuff, though I think I could have done better but it turns out I have insomnia, and because of the same I studied all night yesterday and it was fun, really there is so much learn everyday; I don't like classes, I sense they are a time waste, though I am paying for the same and let's see how everything goes. 

Okay I am sleepy right now, though I will study because that's what monke: does. I will try to complete at least 3 chapters and I just saw that wolverine will be in Deadpool, less gooo!!!!

eh I hope they don't fuck up big, this time. And let's see how everything goes. 

And maybe I may not go to Bangalore, because I don't have anyplace to stay. So if anyone has a flat or home or a crib, or anything mattress available. 

contact cooldude69

Day 5

 My heart's is racing like a bunny in that tortoise and rabbit race. and I don't know why is it beating so fast, I feel tiered like I wanna lay down and sleep, but I cannot I need to study, currently I am in library and I am studying here, I was reading one book and now I cannot find that one, so I am reading a new one and will continue to read it. 

I really have to work a lot, you see, talent always looses when it becomes lazy as hard work beats over it. And I wished I could talk to someone, like it's nice having someone, but it's fine I will study and then I will doze off as soon as I go back to hostel. 

On the Bangalore trip I guess I may not go, let's see what happens. 

Mann my heart it's beating way too fast I guess I will faint, I had food after two days and I am continuously having water and energy drinks. I won't lose this way, this has happened before and it's happening again I know I will do good, whatever be it. 

I am trying not to spend a lot of money, I am controlling it as much as I can. 

I hope I just stay alive, though I think I am having a lust for knowledge and I guess I will die because of it, or maybe it's the cancer. 

Day 4

 So, I do not understand why do we start with "so", like what "so", so nothing, so what has happened, as if something unreal has just transpired, but nothing has actually. 

So today is Parth's birthday, and at first I forgot to wish him, like he's one of my closest here, yet I do not why I did so, maybe I am not a good friend, yes I am not a good friend. Like I am so into myself that forget some important events of others, like birthdays and I do not even consider wishing, I find it to be over-hyped, but it's fine. I guess putting some work on yourself and ignoring others for that while makes sense, but this does not apply to me, maybe I am a dick to my friends. I am too self centered. I don't know, I guess a reality check from someone, but that means, I need to have friends who are there with me without any expectations. 

I heard weekend, and it's relatable, trust me I fucked up so many people, I realized; some directly and for some I took some small actions which ended up having big blast. Weekend is nice. 

I wanna write about a person here, but am too scared what if someone reads about one and then fucks me up, I am scared though it's nice. Like seriously, having someone without any emotions attached and yet you care about one, it's nice. 

Also I am going to Bangalore, without anyone(most prob), I wanna go there and live there alone and see and explore the offices and look how it is there. let's see what's it like. Kanye hits different. 

I am trying to stop smoking, I really have to or else I'll die. I guess it's time that I unleash the secret weapon, called ghosting and determination. 

I will study. 

Day 3

So yesterday was Saturday and today is Sunday, and it was fun yesterday. 

I went to a park with two of my friends where we played, had a good talk with one and another, and it was pretty therapeutic. Also I couldn't stop smoking though I controlled it and am now working on breathing. 

A few guys asked us to company them in one of the rides and they played it so fast that it took me "some time" to get up from that. Then I went on to meet another friend and made her to sit a local train for the first time. and it was fun, literally it was fun. 

We then got off a small place, where we roamed around streets, while singing and dancing. I atleast did the whole joker mimic. then we had food at a local restaurant and from there we came back. 

There's a lot more, it's just I am so tiered I even have to do some assignments and complete few other things. 

Ok bo boi 

Day 2

 so I just found out that time and date is recorded and its on the top of the blog. So a great thing 👍👍, since I use a Mac air, so using emojis is way too inconvenient. 

So today I woke up at 11, which was very late, since I had classes from 8am and till 11, so today I skipped 4 classes, because the classes went on till 12 something, so ya great way to start this; but I can explain, so apparently I had slept at 4issh something, since I was awake because I am stupid, I felt a sense of responsibility that that waking up with someone would be a considerate gesture, but I forgot that how stupid it sounds and is!!

So I took a bath 3 quarter to 4, and then I had planned by 5oclock one would sleep, but they continued to study and now I am in regret, in guilt maybe. This is not a healthy routine so I have planned that I would go for a run tomorrow morning at 5, by sleeping at 12 and then accordingly do everything fast(because I am speed). I have to connect my GitHub to vscode so as to transfer my code directly there. 

Mann I really have to learn a lot of things, like yesterday my roommate locked the door and my phone, keys, wallet everything was inside. I will not use any cuss words because my momma said pretty boys don't give bad words. And because of the same, I couldn't come to library, 

FOR HELLS SAKE MANNN!!!

I am very pissed that I couldn't study yesterday. though I will try to catch up, also I will go and meet the HOD of my dept. I hope so she's available tomorrow. I sat outside her office for an hour and yet she didn't came, I will try for tomorrow. And why is library so over crowded. there's no good ac, its hot in here and not at all comfortable. 

And big news, I will not smoke, I have found a substitute, GATORADE. Now whenever I will find the need I will just buy one of those and will drink those. Today last cigarette, hope so. 

So tomorrow running it is.

Let's just start from here.

 I have no clue if I should mention the date or time because I am not sure that when an article is published on this website it mentions, the date and time. 

So it's my 20th day in the uni and being honest, I feel like I have wasted a lot of time here. Now wasting time and not having fun are two different thing, I actuaclly am having fun in the hostel as it is one of the most fun place, but the only problem is, people always wanna have fun there, no cap; now everytime I try to study or do any particular work, I am compelled to procastanate over the most shittiest thing. Like for example one day I had just sat down to do some coding and then suddenly a friend of mine frekin forced me to join him, as he was going to have a cigarette. 

And talking about cigarettes here, ohh boy, it's like I am having more than 10 ciggs per day and I am not regretting it . 

But at the end I am liking it here, I have a group of friends we are 4 people and I always wanted that, and it's actually fun when all of us are around but the only issue is we do not study, now I know all of us would cope up the studies and extracirrcullar, but one of my friend I am really concerned about him. But let's see, whats there in future. 

I am not going to talk about any women for now as what I know is, all of the boys are poerverts and it goes vice versa, ohh bitch please!!, you know it very well, how one wants to be treated in sex in reality.

Also I have a meeting with a proferssor, so tata good bye. 

I will try to post one blog everyday, and I do not prefer twitter becase I just don't like it. 

Also anytime you feel like you are in a stressfull situation do consult a doctor, or anyone who understands and whom you actually trust.