11:52 - 11:59

 I fucked up, I broke my lighter 

It was given from ____. the most precious thing to me in this world, you know I never shared it I never let anyone touch it, or even lit a ciggerate with it, I would only lit with that lighter. It was the most precious thing to me, and now I think, it's gone. 

I'm moving on from her, it's going on, it's a process. I don't know, how the fuck I fucked up, now I realize that friends should never date. not even a bit. I become easily attached to people, I easily feel in love with people* 

I miss her, a lot but what can I even do. I shouldn't done thought of that stupid promise I made to someone, only to get hurt myself. and the fun part she's not even with me. Though I'm trying, I just need some time. I really want things to work out with people. I just wanted to her's. and no matter how cheesy it may sound I loved her, and I understand that love drives people crazy, that I only want to be her and no one else, and I guess it was the same for me uphill now, but I'm done with that phase 2 weeks back. I really want to fell in love again. 

I would like a hug. 

Everything's gonna be fine, it's gonna be fine 

it'll all work out. 

I'll try to get the lighter fixed tomorrow.